It's finally getting better

I almost don't want to say anything because I don't want to jinx it, but I think maybe we have turned a corner when it comes to dropping Zoey off at daycare. Starting Tuesday, there have been no tears at dropoff! She will make this little pouty face where she sticks her bottom lip way out and give me these sad, sad eyes, but no crying! The pout definitely still gets to me, but it is way better than crying, clinging to my leg, etc. I feel like we are finally getting there and I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that it continues to go well.

We are surviving...

That's about the only way to put it. This transition has been really difficult. I think it's been starting to get a little better. She is still crying every day when I drop her off and it is really heartbreaking. But I'm just trying to get in and out as quickly as possible so that it's not a big scene when I leave where she is screaming and clinging to my leg or trying to lunge back into my arms. I guess that when I leave, she has been settling down pretty quickly, but it still doesn't make it much easier to walk away from her when she's crying. As far as the rest of the day, it's not consistent yet and some days are better than others. She is still really clingy and will follow the teachers around wanting to be held, or sit on their laps, and so she will get really upset sometimes if they are doing something else and she can't be held, or sit on someone's lap and cuddle. She is definitely a snuggler! I guess she has gotten really spoiled being home with me and now she is used to the constant one-on-one attention. So, somedays when I pick her up they will tell me that she had a really good day, and other times it's a rough day and she was upset and crying a lot. Luckily, everyone there is very accomodating and they are doing everything they can to try to make this easier for both of us. That's the only good thing in all of this, that I found a center that I like so much. Hopefully, in time, it will just get to be second nature for all of us and there will be no more tears.

Day 2 was worse than day 1

Well, she still didn't cry when I dropped her off this morning, so I thought that was a good sign, but when I called to check on her late this morning and they connected me with her teacher I could hear her screaming in the background. She said that she had been okay for a good part of the morning but was having a rough time at that moment. And when I picked her up this afternoon, they said that today was worse than yesterday and that when she wasn't distracted by playing, she would follow the teachers around the room crying and wanting to be with them. When I got there, she was sitting in the rocking chair with one of the teachers and clutching onto her baby doll for dear life. So at least I know that they are trying to comfort her and hold her as much as they can, but it this is still breaking my heart. :( I really think it is going to be better if I just don't call to check on her during the day. Because it is not doing me any good to call and hear her crying when I am still stuck at work for another 5 hours. Ugh...this sucks ...

Day 1

Today was Zoey's first day of daycare. Overall the day was okay I guess. I dropped her off around 7:20 and she was fine when I left. She watched me pretty intently when I was walking out the door, but didn't cry. I lingered out in the hallway for a little bit to see if she would start once I was out of sight, but she didn't cry. I, on the other hand was a different story. As soon as I got to my car, I started, and cried all the way home :(. I called to check on her around 11:30 right before my hair apt and they told me that she was having a really rough time and crying a lot :( That really broke my heart and I was so tempted to just cancel my hair and go get her. But once I'm at work tomorrow, I can't just drop everything and go get her if she cries, so I decided it would be better to just leave her there so that she starts to get used to it.
So, when I called back after my hair was done, they told me that she was having a better afternoon, and didn't cry at all at naptime, went to sleep on her own, but only slept for 15 minutes. But she seemed to be in a good mood for the rest of the afternoon after her little catnap, and the rest of the day went much more smoothly I guess. When I went to pick her up, she was sitting at the table with all the other kids having a snack and she didn't immediately reach out for me or start crying when she saw me (I guess those graham crackers were pretty tasty - lol!). But once she finished and wasn't distracted by the snack anymore, she got down she started crying and clinging to me, and then when we got to the car she didn't want to let go of me to get into her carseat - poor little thing. So, it will be interesting to see how she reacts tomorrow morning when we get there.