First RPL appointment

On Thursday, I had my first appt with my dr for Recurrent Pregnancy Loss. Overall it was a pretty good appt, but it was basically just a consultation to discuss what the next steps are and what sorts of testing I need to have done now. So, there are basically three steps to what comes next:

First, I need to go for bloodwork to test me for a clotting disorder, or to see if my body could be producting antibodies against the pregnancies. If that all comes back normal, Joe and I both have to go for chromosomal testing, to see if there are any abnormalities with either of us that could be preventing a healthy pregnancy. If both the bloodwork, and the chromosomal testing don't find anything, I will then have to have the "dye test" where they will inject some sort of dye into me, then x-ray me to take a look at my uterus. She said that she highly doubts that there are any problems with my uterus because if there were, she would have noticed when I had my C-section.

So, until we get the results of all the testing, she strongly discouraged me from trying to getpregnant. So that part really sucks. I am feeling very frustrated that I have to go through all this, and that we have to wait even longer to start trying again. I know that it will all be worth it if the result is a healthy baby, but the waiting still sucks.

On a positive note, I just have to say how much I really love my doctor. She spent so much time talking with me about all the different tests and what all the different possibilites and outcomes could be. And she also made a point of acknowledging how hard it is to lose a pregnancy and made a comment about how a woman starts to bond with the baby the minute the pregnancy test is positive, and that even early losses are really difficult. That really meant a lot to me because I feel like there aren't too many people that truly understand how I am feeling, and so I am so glad that my doctor is one of the ones who just "gets it".

So anyways....that is where things stand. At least we have a plan. I honestly don't know what I want the outcome to be. Part of me wants them to find something so that there is something that can be fixed, but part of me is hoping and praying that everything comes back normal and there is nothing wrong. I really just don't know what to think. I guess for now, the only thing to do is wait and see.