17 weeks

17 weeks - I am starting to feel really huge and uncomfortable which is crazy because I know that I am not that big yet and I can only imagine what I will feel like closer to the end. Here is this week's belly pic:This week has been a tough one for me. Between my August due date on Monday, and my grandpa's birthday on Thursday, it has been an emotional week for me. I have definitely been in a bit of a funk and had a bit of a breakdown earlier in the week. And in addition to all those emotions, out of nowhere I have started to feel really nervous and panicky about my pregnancy. We are going tomorrow night for our anatomy scan which is the big ultrasound that checks the baby's development and all the major things like heart, brain, etc. And I just can't stop worrying that they will find something wrong. I had been feeling really good and really positive about this pregnancy, but all of a sudden all of the fear and paranoia that was with me during 1st tri has started to creep back in :( Ugh, I really hate that pregnancy has to be such a scary thing for me. Most women count down the days to the "big u/s" and can't wait to be able to find out the sex of the baby. But, I can't even really get excited about it. We aren't finding out if the baby is a boy or a girl, so without that excitement, I am so nervous and anxious and just keeping my fingers crossed that we see a healthy baby tomorrow.