37 weeks

Well, there isn't too much to report from my 37 week appt. Baby is still "snug as a bug" according to the dr so it doesn't seem likely that he/she will come before the 22nd. But even so, I feel like that is going to be here so soon, and I have definitely gone into "nesting" mode. All week, I have been furiously cleaning, organizing, and trying to get everything settled .

I am starting to have a lot of anxiety about being away from Zoey while I am in the hospital, and also how she is going do with the transition when I come home. She has been very clingy and needy lately and I can tell that she is having some anxiety too. She's been all about being the baby lately and has been saying things like "I'm a baby. Call me baby mommy". And she's been wanting me to hold and carry her all the time. It makes be nervous because I know that I won't be able to pick her up and carry her for a while after the c-section. I have been talking about it with her to try to prepare her, but I know that it is still going to be hard for her once I am home and she sees me picking up and carrying the new baby, but not able to do the same for her. Luckily, Joe will be home with me for the first week or so, and then my mom, sister, and Joe's mom will all be around to help on various days as well. I am lucky to have such a wonderful, supportive family. It helps to know that I won't be completely alone all the time once Joe goes back to work.

I didn't take a belly pic this week. I kept putting it off since I've pretty much been living in pj's lately since it's the only thing that feels comfy. So, I haven't been feeling like I'm looking very cute, I just feel so huge and awkward - ugh! Since I will be 38 weeks tomorrow, I decided I will just skip the 37 week pic and take one for 38 weeks tomorrow.