Letters to my babies

Well, I have everything pretty much all ready for tomorrow and of course now I have nothing to do but sit and think, and I am starting to feel very mushy and sentimental about this baby coming. I am so, so excited, but there is a little part of me that is a tiny bit sad that Zoey won't be our only baby anymore. I decided to write Zoey a letter, and even though she won't be able to read it right now, when she is older I think it will be nice for her to have.

Then, after writing to Zoey, I felt like I wanted to write something to the new baby we will meet tomorrow, and then I also felt like writing something about the babies that I lost. These pregnancy hormones have really turned me into a mushy mess!

Dear Zoey,
Knowing that tomorrow our new baby will be here makes me think about and remember when you were born. It is so hard for me to believe that two and a half years have gone by because I can remember it just like it was yesterday. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I can't imagine our lives without you. I love watching you learn and grow and I am so proud of what a smart, beautiful little girl you have become. I have cherished all of the time that we have had together- from newborn snuggles, to watching you learn to walk, and talk and turn into your own little person. I love to see you smile and giggle, I love to listen to you sing songs and "read" me stories. I love to watch you with Daddy and see how much you love each other. I have loved every minute with our little family of three, but I am so excited to be giving you a little brother or sister. I know it might be a hard change at first, but I know that you will be such a good big sister and you will have a special relationship with your new brother or sister. I want you to know that no matter what you will still always be my baby. You may get older, and Mommy might have more babies, but you will always, always be my very first baby and you will always be so special to me.
I love you!
Love,
Mommy

Dear Baby,
I can hardly believe that you will be here tomorrow. Daddy, and Zoey and I are so excited to meet you. I have been hoping, and wishing, and praying for you for so long and feel so blessed to be getting ready to welcome you into our family. It has not been an easy road getting to where we are today, and I truly believe that you are our little miracle. I love you so much already and can not wait to snuggle you and hold you in my arms.
I love you,
Mommy

To my two May babies and my August baby,
You may not have been with me for long, but I still loved you right from the very beginning. I had hopes and dreams for you and for our lives as a family together. I am so sad that our time together ended too soon and that I never got to meet you. I will never forget you, my sweet little angel babies.
Love,
Mommy